Feyrbrand Sou’s Rant.

Iunno if ya gonna read this or not, but I’m gonna say it. Otherwise, I’m not gonna sleep well tonite.

It was fun at the first. To find a new friend, to be able to ease the pain, to be able to care for someone, to be able to help someone, to be able to share something… It was fun. It makes myself feel useful. I was happy.

But as I said before, shit happens. A LOT.

To everyone.

I always back you up. I always be there for you. I always be there to support you.

But shit happens. A LOT.

Even to me.

Do you know how does it hurt when you said that you don’t care whether I care for you or not? It’s like shattering a friend’s trust. But I told you before, I don’t want to lose friends, remember? So I picked up the pieces, tried to connect it piece by piece.

And I was able to do it.

And some other shit happened now and then, but I tried to endure it. And I was able to do it.

Then, we weren’t talking for a long time. Well, not too long, but it’s pretty long for me. I’ll admit this. I miss you.

And suddenly you called me. I was in a doubt; answer it or not. But I answered it. And it was such an unimportant thing. It is important for you, but for me? It’s like you don’t trust me.

And I was so pissed off. I was screaming in my pillow, and I think my throat now gets irritated because of that. And then I wrote the lesson of life in my blog. For my lullaby.

In the following night, you called me again. I picked the liberty of not answering your call. Beside, I was sleeping. And you sms’d me.

Feeling guilty, I couldn’t help but keep on worrying. The tone in the SMS IS worrying. Everything’s worrying.

I ended up sms’d some nonsense to you. Trying to tell you, that "Hey. Everythin’s fine. I’m still the old me, the stupid, annoying ol’ me. So no worries. ‘Av no worries, kay? Kay?"

Still not feeling enough, I tried to talk to you directly. Even though my throat is getting more hurt, even though I know that my body temperature is rising.

In the end, I end up in your circle of nonsense. Perfect.

Was it all for nothing?

Like dumped trash, I now don’t want to know anything. Anymore.

And surprisingly, all I want, is to make friends.

I know it’s pathetic. But it’s my side.

PS: I bet you still can’t pronounce ‘pathetic’ till now ;))

There’s lots of things that you learn during your lifetime. But some things ARE really matters and can change your personality forever. Make this blog entry your guide to have a better life. Don’t make the same fucking mistake with mine. Here, I’ll tell you some of my random stories happened recently:

Lesson 1: Do not help elders. They are too old to be helped.
Hey, if you see some random people who are not sure where are they going, don’t bother to help them. Especially elders. Fucking elders. You’ll end up being ignored - probably first; because you’re a stranger, and second; because they can’t hear you anyway. I’d stick to the first one, though.

Lesson 2: Do not try to help lost ones. They know where they’re going.
It’s almost the same with lesson 1. Except they insist to go to Scitech by Blue Cat rather than by Train, which is, not the way. And I was arguing for this fucking stupid matter. What a waste of time.

Lesson 3: Do not go to the karaoke in the afternoon. By yourself.
First, it’s not open yet. Second, you can ask your friend to go somewhere else. Third, being a loner hurts you somewhere in your heart.

Lesson 4: Please don’t be honest on your job interview. Seriously.
Or else, you’ll end up being rejected. You really have to say that you can work full time, 24/7, without any conditions. Maybe give them some cookies and milk. And in the end of the day, when you already have enough to fill your pocket up, tell them that your [put your dead relative here] is sick, and is dying. And you have to go back to your country.

Lesson 5: Check IMDB before you watch something in the cinema.
You don’t want to sleep during the movies, do you? Well I did sleep at Alien vs Predator: Requiem. Didn’t surprise me when I saw most of the ratings. 2 out of 10.

Lesson 6: Never care about your new friend’s problem. They don’t care about you anyway.
I should have realized that being a best friend requires at least 3 same hobbies and 1 month of smooth relationship. Being too care about your (new) friend, and you’ll end up being used. Maybe dumped. Worse, maybe to the extent that you don’t want to know them any-fucking-more.

OK. Got some other lessons, but I have to go to the dreamland now. I got a CUTE test tomorrow. Better be good, so I’ll be CUTE.

Here’s the info for CUTE test if you want: http://info.dolie.curtin.edu.au/cute.cfm

OK nitey kthxbai.

Aku nyadar, kenapa aku ga bisa update blog disini… Coz disini ga ada apa-apa!!! Ga ada sesuatu yg aneh yg terjadi! Semua berjalan kayak air mengalir, ga ada macet2nya T^T

Buoseeen…

Anyway.

Tadi aku baru pulang kerja, trus ke city buat ngambil bis jurusan 177. Karena harus nunggu setengah jam-an, aku ke game center dulu. Ga tahunya disana ada 2 cewek lagi main Drum Mania ama guitar freak… Yang satu imut, yang satu rambutnya panjang. Yay!!! Kataku dalam hati. Akhirnya nemu juga cewek yang main percussion freak, INDO PULA!!!

Aku ngeliatin ampe beres. Abis itu, aku masukin koin buat maen. Berniat unjuk kebolehan ke mereka, aku main Monster Tree level extreme, kalo ga salah level 53. Lulus dengan nilai S. Yay! Kataku dalam hati… Aku keren D:

Eh ga tahunya mereka ga nengok, malah ngobrol -_-

Ya sudah, aku ngambil langkah drastis! Aku main lagu keren, Tocatta level extreme, level 82 kalo ga salah.

Ditengah-tengah lagu langsung failed -_- padahal biasanya bisa!!! Nasib…

Trus pas mau maen lagi, ga tahunya uangku habis 0.o berarti, tadi 2 dolar terakhirku! (Untung sebelumnya dah minta daging gratis ama boss -_-")

Sialnya lagi, ternyata yg rambutnya panjang itu COWOKNYA!!! SIAL!!!

Nasib… Kayaknya ini karma dari Rie >_>

Ampuni aku, rie chayank D:

…

Cari cewek lain lagi ah =3

Winter sebentar lagi… Nooo~!!! Wanita2 akan pake baju panjang dan baju hangat! TT_TT

Anyway. Aku kerja ditukang daging!!! Aku jadi tukang daging D: kalo balik ke indo bisa ikutan motong daging hyahahahaha =___=

Disana cuma layanin costumer. Kalo ga ada kerjaan, motong daging deh D:

Pisaunya tajem2, cuma kenain doang, ga diiris, udah berdarah -_- mengerikan! Lebih tajem daripada pisaunya jason DX

Uuuooohh!! Sekarang males digital colouring, ga tahu kenapa T_T jadi ga produksi… Mungkin lagi M, ya…

Aku pengen bikin steak T^T ada yg tahu resepnya? Aku biasanya cuma pake BBQ sauce trus tusuk2 masukin kedalem telor =_= goreng deh >>;;

Perth ngebetein. Boseeen!!! DX

End.

Ah, lamanya tak mengisi blog… Ah sarang laba-laba… *fuuh fuuuh*

Unyaa~ Is banyak yg terjadi selama blog tak terisi. Mari ceritakan yang penting-pentingnya saja.

Aku dah beberapa kalo pindah rumah, dan sekarang rumahku yang paling baru. I like it here, hyahahaha kayak rumah hotel… Tapi tante kostan-nya suka nagih mulu T^T because of ga ada duit…

Nah, because of ga ada duit, aku ga makan. Breakfast roti 1 lapis + Vegemite. Lunch Roti 2 lapis + Keju. Dinner Roti 1 lapis + Keju. Untung disini air keran bersih, jadi bisa minum… Aduh sakit perut =_=

Kadang-kadang nyolong makanan orang dikit dari kulkas =_="

Maka dari itu, aku mo nyari kerja. Tapi yg namanya aku, sekalinya niat pasti diiringi lagu ga niat. Jadi cuma ngelamar 1 kerjaan doang… Biarlah perut lapar, uang tak ada, diusir dari kost… Yang penting, kehidupan pemalas terus berlangsung!! Pemalas life rules!!! All hail lazyness!! D:

Kalo dah ada uang pengen ice skating ah =3

Ah, aku rada homesick akhir-akhir ini… Jadi malem-malem suka ngolesin balsem ke punggung coz kayak bau rumah kalo ayahku lagi dipijitin ><

Dan pulsaku abis D:

Ah, mari bicarakan orang aborigin. Kebetulan aku tinggal di daerah aborigin. Orang aborigin itu mengerikan. Aku bukan seorang racist, tapi itu memang kenyataannya. Kalo ada orang abo deket2, kita dah siap2 aja kena timpuk (walaupun kenyataannya ga pernah ditimpuk). Sebagian besar dari mereka ga nerima dan ga akan pernah nerima orang asing masuk ke teritori mereka. Dalam hal ini Australia.

Orang-orang aborigin juga suka malak. Dan entah kenapa, dimana-mana orang abo selalu minta $2. Mungkin ada persatuan aborigin-aborigin se-australia >>; Hahaha… Kalo disingkat jadi PAAseA… Bahasa sunda untuk berkelahi. Begitulah kenyataannya, orang abo juga suka berantem. Dijalan juga mereka suka teriak-teriak. Bau mereka kayak orang nggak pernah mandi.

Tentu saja, aku berbicara generalisasi.

Kalo ada yang teriak "WOOOI" dijalan, dah 90% itu pasti orang abo.

Kamu ga akan tahu sampai kamu ngerasain sendiri >_>

Okay, end dulu ampe sini. Aku terusin blognya nanti fufufu…

Hmm… Mulai dari mana ya…

OK. Aku udah pindah ke Curtin Guild House, dan HPku dah bener (Yay X3). Btw kalo mo nelpon, ato sms, ke +61448988244. Ah ya. Akan kuceritakan kejadian2 mengerikan di Guild House.

Hari pertama…

Well, ga ada yang aneh. Dikamarku tinggal 6 orang, ada aku, Liu (China), Advin (S’pore), Miriam (Afrika) dan 1 orang china dan 1 orang thailand yang ga kukenal namanya. Aku dekat ama orang China, udah ibu2, umur 40an. Dia ngajak aku belanja, terus sorenya kita berdua ke danau, ngasih makan bebek. Paginya, kita berdua lari pagi keliling blok.

Nah. Ketemu ama cewek china emang udah jadi impianku. Tapi, sama ibu2?!! 40 tahun?!! Ergh… Mimpiku… Ruined… DX

Ga bisa bilang, "Ni Hao, Xiao Chie X3"

Sedih2….

Nah. Terus, suatu hari, di train station, aku lagi nunggu kereta api, ketika tiba-tiba ada sepasang kekasih, ngobrol manja, saling nyuapin sandwich, pelukan, ciuman.. 0.o .. Beneran, aku ga sanggup ngeliatnya DX. Seperti pasangan yang ada di Shinchan XD

Trus, tadi juga, ada cewek tiduran di paha cowok, padahal lagi ada di busport! DX. Mana dua-duanya orang asia, lagi! Malu-maluin! DX

Well, sepertinya aku mau melanjutkan ceritanya di dA. http://feyrbrandsou.deviantart.com/journal/9721378/

Meow, meow2…

Hmm2

Journal Start, meow…

Well, yesterday I went to Mt.Buller to see the snow. I went there when I was 1,5 years old and yesterday was the second visit. Well, unfortunately this winter doesn’t snow much so the snow were kinda thin, so they made the artificial snow. That wasn’t very cool. But there was real snow for awhile, tho.

Well, anyway…

I’m in Australia now, for studying. I’ll be on Curtin University, but entering directly, for me, is kinda hard. So I’ll just take english bridging course, for fluencing my english, take diploma in October and continue the 2nd year study in July 2007. Neat.

I’ll be studying on Perth, but Melbourne seems cool. Melbourne is a crowded city, unlike Perth. You can meet lots of cute asian girl here, meow X3 (again, ditimpuk ama Rie dari jauh) *ouch*

It’s winter now and there’re lotsof stupid girl wearing short and sexy clothes… I wonder why… –" Are they crazy or something, losing their sense of coldness? Oh well…

Letsee… End Journal Already? ><

Meow… Lamanya tidak mengisi blog ><

Sekarang aku lagi ada di Australia. Disini winter dan dingin banget. Aku sedang berusaha masuk ke Uni. Tadinya mau masuk University of Western Australia, tapi ternyata ga jadi. Aku jadi masuk ke Curtin University of Technology. Tapi karena beberapa kesalahan dan keterlambatan (dan kemalasan), aku jadi berencana masuk di semester pertama tahun depan. Well, itu bagus.

Sepertinya tidak akan kembali ke Indo untuk beberapa tahun… I’ll miss you all heks2 ><

Hmm btw join forum ya http://www.APTX4869.co.nr xD itu iz forum Conan! So bagi yang suka Conan please join my forum!

Hmm2 I’ll miss Rie, will she miss me?

So, Jyodan everyone! Til we meet again!

Hiks2x… Aku punya penyakit yang sangat menyiksa T^T, namanya Cewekphobia… Jadi kalo aku ngomong ke cewek, suka grogi, keringat dingin, nervous ama lupa apa yang mau diomongin, huu huuu… Padahal kan suka ada hal penting, tapi jadi lupa…

("Tapi baguslah, jadi ga selingkuh" =.=" << Kesaksian Rie)

Tapi kalo chatting, normal2 aja, malah jadi aneh ><

Gimana carana biar sembuuh!! God help moi ><

Ada hal yang baru kusadari akhir2 ini… Setelah menara telkomsel dibangun didepan rumahku, aku jadi ngebayangin naek ke atas sana… Dan ternyata!! Aku sadar kalo aku suka ketinggian!! xD

Ada beberapa orang yang ga suka, bahkan pusing kalo berada di ketinggian ga normal.. Tapi aku justru suka!! OMG normal ga ya normal ga ya xD

Trus, pas lagi survey iklan, ngeliat iklan Lux Aqua Sparkle… Kan yang maennya Dian Sastro, entah kenapa tiba-tiba ngerasa kalo Dian itu cantik ama imut banget! Kawaii X3

Trus jadi suka deh T_T